What If?

TO EVERYONE:Interpret which ever way you want :-) (devilish grin)

When do you know you are crossing the line? How do you know it's not meant or wanted to be crossed? What if I WANT to cross the line? What will the consequences be? Will I regret the decision or will the satisfaction of crossing that line overcome any other emotion? What if being a deviant was something that was absolutely necessary even if there are some that don't think so. What if the consequences were something I could live with but somebody else couldn't? How would I be looked at if I in fact DID cross that line? Would you think of me as evil? Sinister? Or maybe you would see me as a rebel? Maybe brave and strong minded? What if my very existence rested on it? Would you rethink your reaction if I told you that there is a fire blazing inside of my inner self that can not be put out without crossing the line that you tell me I can't? Will you be so kind and unselfish to give me what I desire if you know I can not BE without it?
If you know you will be alright and will be able to move past it will you ease the pain that is inside of me? How I wish I could ask these questions. How I wish I could cross that line. How I wish you would give it to me without a fight. How I wish it was mine. Don't get to comfortable. I didn't say I wasn't going to cross the line. I didn't say I wouldn't fight for it. I didn't say it will FOREVER be yours. Just for the time being until the burn becomes to unbearable. I will one day have my soul satisfied and I will BE. You will be angry of course but you will eventually understand and move on. I expect every bit of hatred you will have towards me. I know you will hate every cell in my body. I am prepared for such hatred. You may hang on to it for now. So cherish it and live in the moment. Keep the memories you have with it and appreciate everyday spent. It will eventually be mine. No doubt about that.